I just listened to a meditation for the last day of my woman unleashed solstice online retreat. I have to admit, I did not full do the meditation the way you are supposed to. I started with my eyes closed, but since I was trying to multitask (a complete waste of time when you are trying to meditate), I got distracted (as one should if you are trying to purposely do more than just meditating). Even through the distraction, I was able to follow the meditation for the most part. I got to the clearing, sat on the rock, felt the beating of the rock, asked my question, “What am I seeking?”, and very quickly (almost surprisingly quickly), I got an answer. The answer was DIRECTION. Then I was supposed to see a bowl with a gift left for me. I was to describe what was left for me in the bowl. I will say, I did this same meditation with a little variance the other day so I don’t know know if what I saw was because of that or because that is what I truly saw, but I saw a stone. The other day the stone was smallish (like something I could hold in my hand), smooth, and oval, but today, the stone was a similar size and smoothness, but it was in the shape of a heart.
I think I know the direction that my heart is directing me towards, but I don’t know how to get there. I need to find a new job that is consistent with hours and salary and then I need to take time to move forward in the direction I want to go. Now I think that I need to write down a formal plan for that direction.
What is the direction that I want to move toward? I want to move toward supporting people, especially women, to feel better, eat better, cope with stress and anxiety better, be more creative, and love a more “wholistic” life. When I think about my role as a social worker, I think I make a better coach instead of a therapist. I think the next direction I go towards is that of a coach. This meditation also makes me think I need to listen to my HEART more. I need to use my word of the year and TRUST my HEART.
My goal is to find my direction on how to teach a more “wholistic” lifestyle using the things that I’m passionate about. For a long time, my heart has wanted to have my own business using healthy food, creativity, and other holistic modalities. Hopefully, I can get the courage to trust that this is my passion and it is what I want to spend my time and energy on. While I know I don’t have to follow my passions completely in my own life before I start helping others, I do think that it is important to follow the things I believe in myself. If I can’t follow it myself, how can I expect others to follow it too?
What direction is your heart leading you in? How did you know that it was the right direction or do you still need to find the right direction?