There was a reason I wanted to write this post, but now I forget what made me want to actually write it. I was in the shower and I was thinking of different things that had happened this morning and I was inspired. Now, as I sit to actually write, I realize that I completely forgot my initial thought. That being said, this is something I think about all the time. Am I really being true to myself and what does that actually mean?
So, what does being true to me actually mean (at least what does it mean today)? I am always doing a life review when I think of this question. Many things in life make me wonder “Am I following my path and what path should I be following?” I love most of my life. What I don’t love is how I spend my free time and how I don’t always follow through with my beliefs, passions, and dreams. Yesterday, I posted a quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson, “Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.”
For a lot of us, a path has been laid out and we are taught that we need to follow the path that we started on. Sometimes, I find that there is a path that appears and it looks like maybe it isn’t a real path since there is no tried and true worn out path to follow, yet there is something that is pulling us to that direction. For me, I have a MSW and am currently doing counseling. Prior to that, I was a nursing home social worker for 20ish years. That path was just the easy path to follow, but I new that was my true path. I finally got the nerve to make a change and left a job that I had been at for 4+ years, without another job to go to. I also tried a path that scared me and still scares me, by doing therapy. This is not the path I want to continue on, but it is a path that I think I needed to go down and leave a trail.
I feel like I am at a crossroad on my career path. I feel like I am part of The Road Not Taken, by Robert Frost. I feel like I am at a fork in the road. Do I continue on my same path because that is what you do and what is comfortable, or do I change and try something new and deal with different thoughts, feelings, and questions that go along with change? How can I really be true to me?
I am definitely at a crossroad and I really need to take that path less travelled and leave a trail for others. That trail that I leave for others is not necessarily an actual trail for others to follow, but the ability and the permission to follow their road less travelled and create their own path. My goal is to figure out my truth and how to follow my truth down that path and leave a trail. My passions, mindfulness, nutrition, nature, and creativity, are my guides and my goal is to figure out how to use those guides, in a career, as I travel down a path a create a trail for myself, as I create the career life that I want to lead and live.
Are you true to yourself? Do you know yourself well enough to know what path to start down to create that trail to your true self? How can you be true to you?